Long Day

I think that this has been the longest day ever! I am so tired. But yea I cant go to sleep. Work was work. Went to the chiropractor today. Pretty much just confirmed that my back is justas jacked up as it feels and he says that he is gonna get me all fixed up. I am not getting my hopes up about it. I have had back problems for years and have just had to live with it. But it would be super wonderful it he did get me all fixed up. I would love not to be in pain daily:) I go back on Tuesday afternoon to get he full scoop on how bad the damage is and what his plan is for me. I am a little anxious about it.

Speaking of anxiety, today has bee one of those days for me. S on my way home from work my hubby calls me and tells me that there is a fire out by my Moms house. He said that it was pretty big and heading towards her house. By the time that he got out there is was a big smoky mess. He was there for about five minutes and a cop car came flying in the drive way yelling at them,saying that they had to evacuate like NOW!!! So Justin loaded up Rollie(our blind dog that weighs 85lbs),Sidney(weenie dog) and Bella(Great Dane/horse)while my Mom got Abby dressed and her loaded up and they all headed to my house. At this time I am well......freaking out! I was on the verge of snorting my Xanax or maybe just sticking the entire pill up my nose!! I was a little bent out of shape! So we hung out at my house until we heard from my Step Dad who was having to help the cops out there block off roads so that the dumb asses who might I add don't even live in that area at all, were taking pics and being flipping nosy!!!! Get a damn life people! Get the he'll out of the way! We finally got word that we were allowed to come back in the area, they had gotten the fire contained and pretty much out.:) Thank the LORD!!! There were no homes lost! After we ate supper and chilled out for a little bit we went to sit on the back parkland the fire started back up. :( It is not outta control at the moment but still blazing. I hope the wind slows down and so do all the fires!

I am tired, stressed, irritated, pissy and pretty much a basket case! HAPPY FRIDAY TO ME!!!!


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:)

I am smiling because tomorrow is Friday and I have been ready for it since Monday!!

The past couple of weeks have not been the best for me. Yes I have been Debbie Downer recently and I am sorry. Sometimes you just can't help the way that you feel. I guess that I am not hiding my funk very well because the girls at worked have noticed. :( So the plan for tomorrow is to think positive and try to stay positive. I said try!!

The crazy thing is that I don't really even know why I am feeling this way. I just don't feel like myself. Ughhh, I hate it! But I have been told that it will pass and times like these make you appreciate the good times even more. Does not really make me feel any better but they are nice little words of wisdom.

Do you have a pet peeve?? Or maybe a few of them?? I have never really thought much about them until today. I have more pet peeves at this point in my life than I ever have. Is that because you just acquire more of them over the years? Pretty ridiculous to have a shit load of things that annoy the heck out you!

Abby is asleep. It would be nice and quite but my husband is so loud. I need to be cleaning the house but I am must not really feeling it tonight so I think I will hit that up when I get home from work.

Good night.


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Time heals all wounds.

I have been told this time and time again, and I guess it does. But in the time that you are hurting waiting on the wound to heal, this saying does not really mean much. It's the time between now and then that hurts the most. So my plan...I guess I will just be waiting it out. Waiting for things to heal up.

I miss my friend. Love you Mikey!
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Sometimes things that happen in life just don't make sense. That is where I am at right now. And I really hate feeling this way. It is such a lost feeling. Not fun at all. I am sure in time it will pass.

This weekend Abby had gotten into a my trunk that has all childhood stuff in it. She found a very ugly prom dress that my Mom had put in there that I used to dress up in when I was little. Abby thought it was the most beautiful dress she had ever seen. It was so cute. It reminded me of when I used to dress up in it.:) So this morning when she woke up that was the first thing she wanted to do. She wore it to my Moms this morning. It was hilarious. The look on my Moms face when she seen Abby walking up the sidewalk was priceless!! I wish that I would have had my camera. She said it made her think of me in the dress. :) The dress needs to be taken up in some areas and my Mom and Abby are gonna work on it today. I will post a pic this evening. It cracks me up!

We are half way there!!! And I am mor than ready for the weekend! Hope this day flies by!!!

Blah blah day today! This week is dragging by sooooo SLOWLY!! I just want the weekend to hurry up and get here. The only plans that we have this weekend is a wedding to go to on Saturday morning and that is it! The past several weekends have been so busy and I just need some down time to recover. I would love to feel like I ummmm actually had a weekend.:) Yea that would be super.
The hubby has computer class today after work so Abby and I are gonna order Chinese take out and have a lil in home date tonight! I love it. I am sure we will hit up the red box and see what movie we can find to watch. I love getting some one on one time with my baby girl.:)
I hope the Rangers do better tonight. Ughh, last night that game wore me out. They are so much better than they played! Hope we have better luck tonight!

Talked to my Mom earlier and her, Abby and my Pap were having lunch at Cracker Barrell. What the heck??? I wish I would have been there with them. It would be so wonderful not to have to work. I would love to be a stay at home Mom! That is a dream of mine!!

Well enought dreaming...back to the real world...yep...its work!

Happy Tuesday!

Monday

First I will say that I am very glad that this Monday is all over with. Work was busy and I am just worn out.

I really wish that I could get some good sleep these days. It has been a full week since I have had a good night sleep and it is really starting to show. Needless to say I am in a grumpy mood and no fun to be around. And I hate it. I am praying that tonight will be the night.

This afternoon I had a wonderful chat with my sweet Memaw. I was telling her about my friend Mikey. She always has a way to make me feel better. I would have to say that I have the bestest Memaw in the whole world.

We had a good but busy weekend. We had the fam over at my Moms and that is always wonderful. I guess that with everything that happened earlier in the week, I was and still am in a funk. Here are some pics from our fam cook out on Sunday!



Pops and Abby

My Mom, Bridgett and Colten

Makayla

Colten hiding eggs

Ryan aka Moose hiding eggs

Dalten

Makayla with egg coloring all over her hands:)

Colten, Dalten and Moose. Lil Cuties!!

Kenzie

Ranson

Abby Jean

Ranson

Kenzie and Abby

Mom and Brason

Abby

Moose, Bridgett and Anissa

Colten

Uncle Bud and Dalten

Ranson

Memaw and Don

Mel and Kenzie

The kiddos and Bella

Shannon and Uncle Bud(yes he only has one arm)

Mel and Michelle

Aww how cute.

Friday!

It has been a very long and rough week for me and I am more than ready for this work day to be over with.

Emotions can really ware you out and I think that I have had an over load of them this past week and I just need some time to re-coop! I will be hanging out at the house with the hubby and baby girl all weekend and then Sunday we will be going to my Mom’s house for Easter. Lots of food and fun planned. I hope that by then I will be feeling more up to being around people. I have not wanted to do much this week. I have just wanted to lie in the bed. Dealing with the death of a loved one is so hard your body and mind. I am ready not to feel lost and confused. It’s hard.

Since I am so worn out mentally and physically I am on edge and well…just plain bitchy! I am sorry to anyone who I have been this way to but I have just not been myself. And no I am not normally this bitchy. J

One more patient to go and we are done. Yesssss. I am sooooooooo ready. Happy Friday!!!!

Well God blessed Texas
And deacon Shackleford
He read the Bible seven times
And he believed every word
That ole beat up leather book
had been through it all
He sat on the back pew
so he could chew him a chaw
Singin' Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
He carried candy for the kids
in his Sunday dress coat
He'd take me fishin' after church
And taught me things I needed to know
Naw deacon didn't have a family
Lord knows he wished he did
He told the whole congregation
that I was his grandkid

And today he joined up with Jesus
Wearing shiny pearl snaps
We sang a few gospel hymns
And then the soldier played taps
I bet he's walkin' with Pete down a street paved with gold
Showin' off his brand spanking new wings
And his barbed wire halo

He married sweet Emma Grace
before the war was through
She held his right arm next to his anchor tattoo
He was on a ship off at sea
when she died in child birth
He lost his whole world from the far side of the earth
He lost the will to love
He lost the will to live
Until he met a man
who taught him to forgive
Yeah life took him to hell and back
To hell and back a time or two
But in the end he beat the devil
until he was black and blue
Singin'
I once was lost
But now I'm found
Was blind
But now I see

And today he joined up with Jesus
Wearing shiny pearl snaps
We sang a few gospel hymns
And then the soldier played taps
I bet he's walkin' with Pete down a street paved with gold
Showin' off his brand spanking new wings
And his barbed wire halo

Before he went
he made me promise him
that I wouldn't cry
And though I told him that I wouldn't
You know I couldn't help but lie

Cause today he joined up with Jesus
Wearing shiny pearl snaps
We sang a few gospel hymns
And then the soldier played taps
I bet he's walking with Pete down the street paved with gold
As sure as the old church bell still rings
He always said he had country in his soul
He's showing off his brand spanking new wings
And barbed wire halo

Sweet chariots are comin forth to carry me home
Swing low sweet chariots comin forth to carry me home

Lost

Lost... That would be me at the moment. I am just lost...I am just at a loss. Death is such a hard thing to deal with anytime regardless of the situation. I am 28 years old, graduated in 2001 and I have had my dealings with death. I never thought that I would have to deal with it this much. In high school we had a pretty good size class and it just seems to be getting smaller and smaller. So here we are again. We are back in this situation that we were in not so long ago. Brokenhearted.

A very good friend of mine decided to end his life Sunday night. I love him so much but this is the maddest I have ever been at him! I am scared...lost..sick...mad. I am a ball full of emotions. So confused. I have never had to deal with something like this before. Everyone has questions. Random people want to know why. Some want to talk to you about the Lord. Let it be. It is not your place to judge....isn't the right?!?!? Let's just allow the man up stairs do that. There is no need to remind everyone about the sin that he has committed. We are all very aware. Does it really matter how he died? We are all still going to miss him the same if it had been a car wreck. To me it make no difference. More confused maybe but does not change how I feel and how much I miss him. I am praying for him praying so hard. Many say it will make no difference. And I am thinking that they shouldn't say a damn thing. I don't tell you what you need to pray about and you don't tell me what I need to pray about. I am praying for him, his family and all his friends.

Everyone is fighting their own battle. Some just don't know how to win it on their own. I will not be the friend that bails when the battle gets to difficult, I will be there till the end. I am still fighting for you Mikey and I will not stop. You will always be in my heart.

R.I.P Mikey. I love you!!

<3Mikey Meadows<3

Mikey and John
We lost them both way too soon

Miss you....

Always smiling
Always the life of the party

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Really???

The Rangers lost today!!

And not only did they lose but Josh Hamilton got hurt and will be our for 6 to 8 weeks. What the heck?!?So that is what is making me sad today. He is my fav player and now I will not be able to see him play! It was a good game tho. It would have been much better if they would have won and Hamilton would not have gotten hurt!



It is only Tuesday night and it feels like it should be Friday night! Yea right I wish!!

Work just seems to be dragging my this week.

I talked to me Dad this evening. I have not talked to him in a while. I haven't seen him in a bigger while. He does not live that far away from us but we don't see each other like we should. I am hoping that we get to see them sometime soon. It seems like it has been forever.

Time for me to finish cleaning up the house and get ready for bed. I am worn out from this day!

Good Night!

Tuesday Thoughts

1. Why in the heck do the Rangers have to play so damn early??? People have to work and can't watch it!!
2. It is amazing how some people think that they are so entitled. Hello, It is NOT all about you!
3. Why is there always more chiefs than there are Indians??? All this time I thought that it should be the other way around.
4. My baby girl is growing up more and more everyday and I am still not sure if I am ok with it....August is going to be here before I know it and she will start school!! WTH?!?!
5. With that being said, I think that it is time for a baby! I am not getting any younger. And Abby and I are ready....Only if my Hubby was.:(
6. Is really super glad that my brothers both have girlfriends that I like and aren't stupid. You would not believe how many stupid young girls there are out there. :)
7. I am so ready to see a good fight in the UFC! I am about to check and see what the next fight card looks like.
8. I have a baby shower to plan for my cousins wife and I have a lot to do and have not started yet. Yes I know that I should get on the ball but I am sure that no matter when I start the planning it will turn out wonderful!:)
9. I wish that I had a window right in front of my desk so that I could have a good view of the outside world while at work!
10. Too bad that the title of this post is not "Thursday Thoughts" That would mean that tomorrow would be Friday and I LOVE Fridays!!

Softball!!

Bout to head to bed. We spent the evening at the softball field with my sweet nieces. They both had games tonight...at the same time. Thank goodness the fields were right beside each other. :)

Makayla is 12, she was warming up with her coach and the wind was blowing like crazy. Right as the ball was about to hit her glove it took a turn right to her fore head.:(  Poor thing. Check this out.

Yes, that is where the stitching hit her head!!

She was a champ tho. Put some ice on it for about 5 minutes and played the entire game. They won too.:) It was like 13 to 3!!!

Kenzie is 8, she also had a game tonight and she was injured too. WTH?? Yea I know. Crazy. She was outside at her Memes house yesterday and stepped on a nail in flip flops. It went right up in her foot. If you have ever done anything like that before you know that hurts like hell. But she was a champ too and played her game today. She busted out a home run and got several other great hits!!! Ain't nuttin gonna hold these girls down!!!!

Time for bed. Night!:)

Weekend Wrap Up....

Well here it is Monday....again. Blahh. I am no fan of this day.

We had a good but busy weekend. Saturday Abby and I were up bright and early to head out to the softball field to watch Kenzie and Makayla (my neices) play their first game of the season. So we ended up beign there till around 4pm. We were both pretty worn out, hot and sweaty. But all in all we had a great time. The girls played great. All the softball business pretty much took up most of our day so after all of that we headed home and hung out at the house for a while. I did the mountains of laundry....and still did not get it all done. I don't have a clue where it all comes from. I guess that it will be waiting on me today when I get home. :(  We grilled at my Mom's Saturday evening. My brother Dalten and his girlfriend decided not to go out and hung out with the fam for the night. I think that we ended up leaving sometime after midnight. It was a good time. That is something that I could do every weekend.

Sunday mornings we always have brunch with the fam at my Mom's house so when Abby and I decided to finally get out of bed we headed out there. Justin ended up staying in bed till after lunch. Must be nice. I can never do that. I guess that it comes with the name...MOM!!

In between all the activities this weekend I still managed to watch most of the Rangers games!! And that made the weekend great.

It is pretty upsetting that today their game is so early and I am at work. :( 

I guess that I will be reading the play by play all day.

Back to the softball field tonight, both girls have a game. I am sure that when my head finally does hit the pillow tonight I will be out like a light. One plus about all the time at the ball field is that I am working on tanning my white ass legs!!!

Hope you have a wonderful Monday...if that is possible!