**Secret Santa 2**

So I think that I have the best Secret Santa EVER!!!!!

Here is what I had waiting on my desk when i got to work this morning. :)

**Pretty**

**excited to add this to my collection**

**Sugar Cookie**

**Justin will think that I have been baking when he gets home**



**It was full when I got it**



**YUM**

**This could become an everyday deal for me**

**So Sweet**

And just to let ya ll know I have very much enjoyed it!!
I think that this is going to be a great night!!

**Secret Santa**

At work this week we are doing Secret Santa!!! So much fun! I have no idea who has my name this year but they are doing a great job picking out gifts. I did not take a pic of my gift yesterday and it is at my Mom's house so I will show you what I got today. I just love them!!

*This is what my gift was in*

*How cute is that*

*This smells so good*

*This looks so cute on my tree*

I will post pics tomorrow of what I got on Monday. I can't wait to see what I get tomorrow. :)



For sure a Monday=)

Glad that Monday is out of the way and we are one day closer to Friday. Work was pretty busy and that made the day go by fast. I got of a little after 5 today and I was headed home. When I took the exit to my house I noticed this guy in some kind of ford car on my A.S.S. I really think that he was rubbing the back bumper of my car. Yea that is how close he was. So I am looking in my mirror trying to figure out who the hell this guy is and what he is doing and I am coming up on a stop sign.....so I start to slow down like I do everyday on my way home, before I even got to the damn stop sign the jackass honks his horn at me. WTH??? Hello, I don't know what you usually do at stop signs but I S.T.O.P.  at them. I stopped at the intersection and then went on my way with the guy on my ass the entire way home. I don't know why but when someone is on your ass it just makes you want to slow down even more or maybe just slam on the breaks and see if the fucker is paying attention. I don't know what his hurry was but I hope that down the road he got pulled over and got a nice, early Christmas gift. :) Merry Christmas to you, Mr. I love riding random people's asses for no other reason than just to be an idiot!!! I really hate when things like that happen.

Well I guess that I am off to bed. I would like to try and not hit snooze 52 times in the morning. Haha. I have never been the one that hits snooze but the past few weeks I think that I have hit it every single morning. I need to get some more rest...I think. Maybe not so much sleep but just relax and rest. Yes I think that sounds really good....To bad that I can't just do that whenever I want to!! Yea that would be because I am a MOM!!! Full-time job X  2 for this lady here. And my husband thinks that he works a lot. Hahaha. Well how about trying to work 24 hours a day-7 days a week for the last almost.....5years. Yea he could not even do it. Hell he would not even attempt it for that matter. L.A.Z.Y.

Why does the weekend have to end??

I don't think that I will ever understand why the weekend has to go by so damn fast!!! I guess whether I understand it or not it happens so I just need to get over it. :( So with the weekend over, it is back to work in the AM and I am not looking forward to it. One fun thing about this work week is that we are doing our Secret Santa thing! So it should be nice. I am just ready for Christmas to get here and so is my baby girl. She is on the count down just like every other kid in the world. I miss all the fun and excitedness that Christmas used to be when I was a kid. Being an adult you have to stress with all the gift buying and money. It kinda takes the fun out of it all. I can say that I love Christmas morning when I see Abby's face, her eyes all lit up and smiling from ear to ear. Seeing that reminds me of when I was little. Seeing her excitement makes it all worth while-the stressing out! I did not go overboard this year. I am very proud of myself. I still have to get Abby a bike and I will pick that up this weekend. After I get the bike I will be all done shopping with her, I think. I really need to make a list. It is crazy, I really don't have a memory for shit these days. I don't know what the deal is. I just feel like I will not be able to remember anything unless I write it down. Oh well I guess that is just part of life, I just thought that it would come later.

Next Saturday I have a little "me" time planned and it is really much, much needed. I never get anytime alone or just to hang out and have a drink. Next Saturday I am going to hang out with Melanie my sis-in-law and her girlfriend Michelle, my other sis-in-law. We are going to chill at their house and I am going to bring some nice fruity drinks!! I am so ready. I always have a good time when I am with them. They are hilarious. And when the three of us get together there is never any quite time or a dull moment. We are talkers to say the least. I hope that this will be just what I need-a little pick me up right before the holidays. My husband gets free time and "me" time almost everyday and for sure every week. So I think that it is about damn time that I get some for myself. I think that everything should be 50-50 in a relationship and that includes free time aka "me" time. I know that there are some men out there that don't think that way. Hell I would even go as far as to say that most men don't think that way. I am hear to tell you that if things are not 50-50 in a relationship or marriage that someone will start to resent the other one. And that is a hard thing to get past. I don't know if it is even possible. Well I am sure that it is possible but you know what I mean. For someone who is a grudge holder it is really hard. And that would be me. I am a grudge holder-not something that I am proud of, but it is what it is. Let's just say that I am a work in progress.

**Not too soon though**

Busy Morning..

I have had a busy morning and I am sure that it will be busy on in to the night. I have so much laundry to do. You would think that I run  cleaners or something. Sometimes I don't mind doing laundry but I really have not been in the mood the past week so I am really having to make up for some lost time.
On top of all the laundry Abby and I had to get in her room and clean it up. Wow. I did not realize that she had so many toy and stuff that she does not play with. I told her that we need to make room for all the new things that Santa will bring her and all the other gifts that she will get for Christmas. Now we can actually close the lid on her toy box and her room is spotless. I love the feeling of a clean house. I just wish that I had that feeling. Haha. I think that the more I clean in one room the more Abby and Justin mess up in another. That  gets old really really fast.

We are having my brothers Birthday party today and I am really excited. I finally get to meet the "girlfriend" he has been spending so much time with. Abby has met her. The day that she met her we were on our way home and Abby said, "Mom, Jessica is waaayyyy prettier than Jesse!" (Jesse from Toy Story3) Hehe. I thought that was so cute. I figure that is Abby like her then I will too. Dalten is such a sweetie pie. Really both of my brothers are. I am a very very blessed sister.  I will have to take some pics at the party today and post some. I have not posted any recently. I will also take some pics of our Christmas tree.

Well I better get off here and get ready for the party. I think that the party will put me in a better mood......I hope.

What a night.

We missed the damn parade. I think that I was more upset than Abby was. Hehe. She is not all about the loud ass cop cars and firetrucks, so really she did not mind. Instead we grabbed some McDonalds(not my fav) and are just chilling at the house. My Dad and Step Mom came by to visit for a little bit this evening, which was really nice. I don't get to see them as often as I would like. I used to be such a Daddy's Girl. I guess that I still am in a way, but I just don't get to spend much time with him. They live in Vernon, which is not that far away, but they are busy working and stuff. It is just hard for us to get together as often as we should. I miss spending time with my Daddy. Every other weekend he used to come and get me and we should go spend the day together. Miss that a lot. Sometimes I just want to spend time with just my Dad and no one else. And I am not being mean or anything but I would just love to be able to do that again. I think that I need to have a heart to heart with him. :)
I don't know if it is just because it's that time of the month or what but I am really an emotional mess. And well it just really sucks. One second I am crying-then laughing-then pissed. I am feel just a little bit on the crazy side. I think that I may need a little wine with my xanax tonight. Hehe. No really I think that I may. If it was not that time of the month I would think that I was knocked up with the way that I have been feeling. No fun at all.
I think that I need some inspiration in my life. I need something to inspire me. I just need something. I am no the search and I am not having any luck at all. I think that I am searching in all the wrong places. Hell maybe I should not even be searching at all. I am in this place where I want to find myself. I think that I have lost "myself" within the past few years and I want "me" back. I know that I am a Mother and that is all I seem to know these days. And don't get me wrong I love every second of being a Mother. She is my world. I love her to death. I would be lost without her. And I think that part of my problem is that when my Mom decides to watch Abby for whatever reason, I'm just bored and lost. Damn I think that I am sounding a little bit pathetic. Does all this even make sense to anyone??? So maybe I am crazy. I need time. Time to think.

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1. I wish I could win the lottery...and never have to work again. :)


2. Yesterday I worked,picked up Abby,Ate supper at my Mom's house, Came home got int he bed and watched Eclipse.

3. Today I will go to the Christmas Parade and I hope get some house cleaning done.


4. Tomorrow I will Clean house and do laundry and I am sure that it will take all damn day. :(


5. Maybe take a nap...I hope.


6. Someday I will not be so stressed.

7. I love my sweet baby girl, my husband, wonderful family, my dogs,(even though they are worthless) the UFC and football.